set you free.

my relationship to the truth has been something that I have been trying to understand more, and with more time, I find myself with less of an answer as to what IS the truth.

it’s a tricky subject for me because I think there are two kinds of truth; the first kind being the objective truth (accepted truths, e.g. the Earth rotates around the Sun, -32F is the freezing point for water, I showered today, etc.) and then there are the more subjective truths (more like perspectives, e.g. a person was yelling at the cashier today, she speaks softly, you look tired, etc.).

while it’s not a completely new idea, I am reminded that one’s thoughts make up one’s reality. the way you choose to perceive yourself is going to outwardly affect your life. to experience something new, you must experience something new internally. you must change the truth that you live by. you must choose to change the way that you look at yourself and believe that this new perspective is the truth. to become lucky, you must first believe that you are lucky. reality follows soon afterward. with my experience, this is everything in life. between all the times that I have wanted to change and the times that I did, I first had to change the way that I viewed myself. I had to change my thoughts which then changed my beliefs which then changed my actions which changed my outcomes which in turn reinforced my identity.

it’s not an easy task and it’s something that I continue to work on, but I think this is a good reminder that it takes everything to make changes. the cost of your new life is your old one. the opportunity cost is something that I am reminding myself of. the main point here is that all of these thoughts and actions have to align otherwise you are designing chaos in your mind and you won’t reach those goals of yours.

for example

when I am broadcasting my goals, and I fail to put everything into them, not only have I broadcasted my shortcomings, I now have accountability sources and I have to explain why I didn’t make my own goals a priority. that’s such a shitty feeling. it’s on me tho.

on a related note, after doing some talks with my mentors, I am realizing that not meeting these goals that you set for yourself only trains your brain to believe that you are not actually capable of following through on your efforts. procrastination is one of the hurdles that I am having to really fight to make sure that I am hitting my stride. to be completely honest, I have put this blog off because I was concerned that I was not going to be able to live up to what I’ve been doing. it got bigger than me for a second, so I made myself sit and remember that this is for me at the end of the day.

on a final note,

the truth will set you free.

when you think about the people that struggle with any kind of addiction, it really becomes a problem when they are hiding their bad habits from the people that they care about. of course, there’s a layer of shame that comes with any kind of addiction.

that’s why the first step in solving any problem is just being honest with yourself (and then others).

I have lied to myself a lot in the past. in a lot of different avenues. for so many reasons, that doesn’t work. I think I might have touched on that in one of my previous blogs, but for now, this is just one more reminder to myself that there is no point in lying to myself. it’s best to just move in my direction, own my truth, and trust in the heart that God gave me.

take care of yourselves team.

thank you to my friends for being there.

from the chateau.

action / everything.

all praise is due to the most high.