sardonic.

quote from Dune speaking on greatness and what those who are in search of greatness must experience if they wish to not be destroyed by their own myth.

perhaps one of my favorite quotes from Dune. there’s so much about that book that I love. the story of Paul is tragic. he’s thrust into this light of being the Muad’Dib even when he does not want to be. the chosen one. the Lisan al-Gaib. Voice from the outer worlds. Dune really made me question a lot of institutions that we have. without going too much into that; I think the quote above is really interesting.

I did not fully understand what sardonic meant, so I looked it up: grimly mocking or cynical. what I am taking it to mean in this quote is that being cynical of your patterns keeps you honest and keeps you sharp. how many times have I let a little greatness crush me because I did not feed the system that gave me the results that I looked for. I’m being as honest as I can with myself. and right now; all I know is that I need to get a whole lot better at everything.

I want to be great. I want to be a top 10% human in as many fields as possible without slipping on the things that I truly care about. one thing that I keep running into with life is that I am reminded over and over again that you can’t fall for the doomer shit. it’s so easy to fall into that trap that everything sucks, and hey, maybe things DO suck for a while. but you must remind yourself that you will be okay. to be great; I imagine, you have to think that you’ll make it. I think about how often I have to convince myself that I’ve already made it and the only thing up for debate is that I put one foot in front of the other and I made it to where I wanted to go.

that being said; sometimes it is MUCH easier to do so than others. but at the end of the day; if you want to be better, you just gotta be. no overthinking it, some days, you really just gotta get there. by any means. I mean with some things, I really just make it as stupid as possible because otherwise, I’ll overthink myself into paralysis.

I had a great day today. I learned a lot. I’m looking forward to tomorrow where I hope that I can prove myself to be one of the top guys with a little time. maybe THE top guy. that could be a little ways a way; I know there is still so much to learn, but I cannot recall the last time that I have effortlessly wanted to get better at something. a desire to learn that I haven’t felt in some while. it could be a lot of things I guess; but all I know is that I can’t stay here. I think I’m a rolling stone.

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