no te desveles.

don’t trust your thoughts after 9PM.

it’s an axiom that I understand more and more with time.

there was a moment in college when I realized how important it was that I get an adequate amount of sleep. I remember very vividly coming to the realization that I was really struggling and I did not know why. it wasn’t until after I got some sleep that I understood the drastic impact that sleep had on my wellbeing.

I remember going from my freshman year in college when I would regularly stay up and do all nighters because I was not able to prioritize my responsibilities in a manageable way to really not being able to function on less than 4 hours of sleep.

the turnaround from Tuesday nights to Wednesday mornings has been a difficult one more recently as I continue to make my blog a priority in my life. as a means of expression, a way to market my brand, and a routine that keeps me sane; I love staying up to make sure that this is done every Tuesday. it’s worth the harsh recovery the next day. I live off of caffeine and nicotine these days anyway.

no te desveles para nada que no te sirve.

as I continue to document my existence to myself, I can’t help but look back 6 months ago to see how different it all was. I know that I keep writing this, but it is genuinely so crazy to see how much life can change in such a short span of time. there were many months when I wasn’t sure how I was going to move on with my life. I felt so very stuck with no way to really turn. I didn’t know what changes I needed to make to really make a significant difference in my life and I was so frustrated with myself. I wanted to make so many changes to my life, but I was holding onto too much baggage.

I take full accountability for sitting with all that pain for as long as I did and for not getting the right help to fix that problem. in all honesty, I could not fathom that letting go was a viable solution.

have you ever woken up for months on end thinking on how to solve a very personal issue, but the only thoughts that arrive are, “this is not working, this is not working, this is not working” as you rinse the shampoo out of your hair, hoping that it does not make its way to your eyes? monthss. you keep trying. you keep trying. you keep trying, but the writing is on the wall and you can’t ignore it anymore.

6 months later, everything is very different and your life starts to make a little bit more sense when you take leaps while keeping faith that everything will be fine. there’s a bit more clarity. there’s a lot more intention. what a difference 6 months can make. I can’t wait to see where I’ll be in another 6.

from the chateau.

action / everything.

all praise is due to the most high.